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The model student
Feb. 15th, 2005 10:10 amThe rest of my class picked the easier essay question as well for our midterm with a just few exceptions, and before our prof handed them out last night she said she typed up 'a really good essay' & copied it as a handout to pick up during our break.
I got my bluebook back, a perfect score with 'thank you!' written under the grade. Then I picked up the handout, and after a few sentences realized my essay was the one she used.
I'm not certain I've ever felt this combination of pride & embarrassment before.
This all puzzles me though, as I appear to be headed for a 6th quarter in a row of a 4.0. I do only have one class a quarter, but I have plenty that I'm juggling otherwise so my entire focus in life isn't school. The classes have all challenged me and I've learned a great deal from each one, so I'm not coasting through on easy material either. One thing I have noticed is that I study the prof more than the material the first week or so, and I seem to be able to figure out what makes each one tick and adapt my writing & class discussion style accordingly. Maybe I'm a chameleon?
As my beloved psychotic prof I've had twice & will have again next quarter has taught me, it's pretty much all a game of power. I added a dash of theory from his classes in my final midterm paragraph, and that may be what bumped mine to model status. Hopefully the two students I know who have also had the psycho prof won't suddenly know I wrote the essay because of it!
I got my bluebook back, a perfect score with 'thank you!' written under the grade. Then I picked up the handout, and after a few sentences realized my essay was the one she used.
I'm not certain I've ever felt this combination of pride & embarrassment before.
This all puzzles me though, as I appear to be headed for a 6th quarter in a row of a 4.0. I do only have one class a quarter, but I have plenty that I'm juggling otherwise so my entire focus in life isn't school. The classes have all challenged me and I've learned a great deal from each one, so I'm not coasting through on easy material either. One thing I have noticed is that I study the prof more than the material the first week or so, and I seem to be able to figure out what makes each one tick and adapt my writing & class discussion style accordingly. Maybe I'm a chameleon?
As my beloved psychotic prof I've had twice & will have again next quarter has taught me, it's pretty much all a game of power. I added a dash of theory from his classes in my final midterm paragraph, and that may be what bumped mine to model status. Hopefully the two students I know who have also had the psycho prof won't suddenly know I wrote the essay because of it!
