One step closer...

[twilight33]

So a while ago I was talking about an appointment to start fixing some mistakes I've made. At that time, I was informed about two things I needed to put in motion. One started on our anniversary, the other was completed yesterday. Now I have to wait a while for the next step to be done by others, and once it is I'll spill what I'm up to. I'm very nervous about either failing (again) or being thought of as a failure for going through this in the first place, so it'll be an anxious wait.

A very long time ago, an Alarm song used to motivate me when life repeatedly knocked me flat on my butt and it's come back to my mind today.

Well, back in '75
When the kid was on the line
And he felt no pain
'Cause there was none
He would bend in the wind
Take in anything
Like sniffin' roses
And it was alright
Until he fell
And cut his hand
He just could not understand
He'd run away
Blame pretense
For defence
Or plain innocence

Say that's alright
The harder it fights
I'm one step closer to home
The deeper it bites
I'm one step closer to home
And you can tie my hands
Or whip my back
I can't give in
'Til the sky turns black
I may get lost

I'm one step closer to home

Oh yeah he ran
Hitched rides
Travelled light
Left his bags behind
Said he'd lost them
He said that's O.K.
I get money and a smile
From place to place
And they don't mind
I've had the heads of business men
And I just gave them
Right back again
I've got no need
For device, disguise
Or for their compromise

Said that's alright

The tougher it gets
I'm one step closer to home
The more that I sweat
I'm one step closer to home
And you can tie my hands
Or whip my back
I can't give in
'Til the sky turns black
I may get lost
I'm one step closer to home

There ain't no need for this at all, at all
Surely you can help me out
Say, I know a lot of people just like you
Plenty to live for and nothing to lose
So tear it all down
Smash it all up
Break it all down and then just

Build it up

Build it up
Ah now build it up
Oh you build it up (Build it up)
Ah now build it up (Build it up)
Ah build it up
Build it up, Build it up, Build it up, up, up, up

And the tougher it gets
And the more that I sweat
And the harder it fights
And the deeper it bites
I'm one step closer to home
And the harder it fights
I'm one step closer to home
And you can tie my hands
Or whip my back
I can't give in
'Til the sky turns black
I may get lost
I'm one step closer to home

It's meant many different things to me depending on where I was in my life, and I forgot all about it when I made the mistakes I did. Not this time.