twilight33 | Cheers!

It's been a long, silent trip here in this journal but I'm resurrecting it because I wish to blather. I wiped out all the other previous entries except for one because it makes me think, and anything that does that these days needs to be remembered.

So, here I am in my new life as a mom. I adore it with everything that I am and always knew that I would once I got here. I love my son so much that I could cry, and often do in sheer happiness. What I didn't see coming was how much he would transform the rest of my life... my marriage, my career, my friendships, everything. It's not that he himself actually did anything to these relationships though. His main almost-4-month-old activities are largely limited to shoving his toys in his mouth and discovering his knees after all.

Since the day of his birth, he has caused me to step way outside of myself and take a good look at it all, and I've been stunned by what I see. Nobody warned me about that part of parenthood, which makes me wonder if I'm some freak and nobody else feels this way, or if no one else ever talks about it.

So, here I am in this journal attempting to talk about it. Not tonight, but over the days (years?) to come... we shall see. If you care to join me for the ride, welcome & you've been warned!