Everything you know is wrong
Feb. 11th, 2004 10:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
twilight33The more I keep ending up in classes at UW that aren't what I initially intended to take, the more I realize I'm actively destroying the mindset of all formalized(grammar, high school and supposed higher education) knowledge I have gained in the past. 17 years vs. two quarters, it's rather impressive and frightening at the same time.
The midterm? After another initial wave of panic when the prof spent 15 minutes explaining how it was only worth 35% of our grade, that tests never capture all knowledge you truly learn from a course, the fact that our class average was only 82%, blah blah blah.... I ended up with 97% from a prof who is apparently well known as a tough grader.
I think I hear a whisper in the wind, that I'm supposed to incorporate this new mindset of understanding instead of conceptualizing & somehow merge it with a new career. I'd like to think that I know where & how, but in reality none of it makes sense. I'm too old. I have a kid. My career experience has absolutely nothing to do with these dreams. I can't afford to start off at entry level elsewhere. I should plow ahead in fiscal & HR stuff because I'm really good at it. I should be (and am) thankful I have a job in the first place. Why dare to hope for something completely different?
Because I just can't shake the feeling that there's something I'm not even aware of yet that I'm even better at which will have more of an impact for a greater good than the 170+ people I currently work for.
This is all NOT what I had in mind when I set the wheels in motion a year ago to return to school to earn a BA as a life lesson for both Kieran & myself in finishing what I started. Then again, the majority of my life has happened in ways I didn't have in mind. Much to consider...
The midterm? After another initial wave of panic when the prof spent 15 minutes explaining how it was only worth 35% of our grade, that tests never capture all knowledge you truly learn from a course, the fact that our class average was only 82%, blah blah blah.... I ended up with 97% from a prof who is apparently well known as a tough grader.
I think I hear a whisper in the wind, that I'm supposed to incorporate this new mindset of understanding instead of conceptualizing & somehow merge it with a new career. I'd like to think that I know where & how, but in reality none of it makes sense. I'm too old. I have a kid. My career experience has absolutely nothing to do with these dreams. I can't afford to start off at entry level elsewhere. I should plow ahead in fiscal & HR stuff because I'm really good at it. I should be (and am) thankful I have a job in the first place. Why dare to hope for something completely different?
Because I just can't shake the feeling that there's something I'm not even aware of yet that I'm even better at which will have more of an impact for a greater good than the 170+ people I currently work for.
This is all NOT what I had in mind when I set the wheels in motion a year ago to return to school to earn a BA as a life lesson for both Kieran & myself in finishing what I started. Then again, the majority of my life has happened in ways I didn't have in mind. Much to consider...
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Date: 2004-02-11 11:32 pm (UTC)How often, on average, would you say that your intended goals that you envision when you set wheels in motion end up being the important goals you gain once in motion?
For me, I'd say 1 in 8....if that.
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Date: 2004-02-12 04:38 pm (UTC)Long-term (5 year plan) is a much better track record & I'd say the goal relevance is a bit higher, 50/50. Then again it doesn't surprise me since we have vastly different ways of planning :)
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Date: 2004-02-12 05:32 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2004-02-13 11:57 am (UTC)