Odd timing
Feb. 19th, 2003 09:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
twilight33Remember the money site I talked about yesterday? I found $853(!!) owed to my Grandma who died 11 years ago today. I forwarded the information to my mom since she settled her estate, and she wants to be honest and split it 3 ways with her 2 sisters. Possessive only child that I am, I think she should keep it all, not mention it to them, and give me a cut since I found it to begin with. Is that so wrong? :) I think Grandma probably would have given the whole lot to me anyway to put into savings for Kieran.
God I still miss her so much. She was headstrong & stubborn as hell (typical Taurus traits, ones I emulate plenty myself) but also a big emotional softy who loved her family & friends more than life itself. Spending weekends with her was the highlight of my childhood, as we'd do everything from go to Pixie Woods in Stockton (when it was still a cool place to go to, it's quite run down now) to dance in the living room, then she'd let me stay up past my bedtime to watch The Love Boat and eat ice cream with Hershey's syrup drizzled over it. She traveled all over the world, and I still have all the dolls in native dress she brought back for me. I hope one day I can visit half as many places as she's been.
I think she knew she was going to die, even though nothing was apparently wrong with her. I was the last family member to see her a week before she slipped into a coma, and I tried my best to get out of that since I was home from college on winter break with (I thought) more important things to do like sleep in and lounge around. She insisted on meeting up with me halfway between Sacramento and Lodi anyway to give me a present one afternoon. I failed to understand why she couldn't just ship it to me back at the dorms, but that wouldn't do. We visited for about an hour, talking about school & life. She gave me a cute teddy bear & a card saying how proud of me she was, and her friend took a picture of us together... in retrospect she looked so frail but I didn't notice it at the time. As I drove away I thought 'That's the last time you'll see her as she really is', and quickly chided myself for thinking it. I hate being right.
I love you, Grandma. You may have been proud of me, but I still have a ways to go toward fulfilling a promise I made to you. I'm working on it though, and those Taurean traits will see me through.
God I still miss her so much. She was headstrong & stubborn as hell (typical Taurus traits, ones I emulate plenty myself) but also a big emotional softy who loved her family & friends more than life itself. Spending weekends with her was the highlight of my childhood, as we'd do everything from go to Pixie Woods in Stockton (when it was still a cool place to go to, it's quite run down now) to dance in the living room, then she'd let me stay up past my bedtime to watch The Love Boat and eat ice cream with Hershey's syrup drizzled over it. She traveled all over the world, and I still have all the dolls in native dress she brought back for me. I hope one day I can visit half as many places as she's been.
I think she knew she was going to die, even though nothing was apparently wrong with her. I was the last family member to see her a week before she slipped into a coma, and I tried my best to get out of that since I was home from college on winter break with (I thought) more important things to do like sleep in and lounge around. She insisted on meeting up with me halfway between Sacramento and Lodi anyway to give me a present one afternoon. I failed to understand why she couldn't just ship it to me back at the dorms, but that wouldn't do. We visited for about an hour, talking about school & life. She gave me a cute teddy bear & a card saying how proud of me she was, and her friend took a picture of us together... in retrospect she looked so frail but I didn't notice it at the time. As I drove away I thought 'That's the last time you'll see her as she really is', and quickly chided myself for thinking it. I hate being right.
I love you, Grandma. You may have been proud of me, but I still have a ways to go toward fulfilling a promise I made to you. I'm working on it though, and those Taurean traits will see me through.
